Something's gotta give

I am overwhelmed. I feel like an insignificant speck in the vast sea of what is now my life. School is killing me. Taking Calculus, Statistics, Economics, Business Writing, and Marketing seems to be a horrible combination. Especially the Calculus, Statistics, and Economics part. I have been working on my house as little as one can work without being openly aware of it. I really want to work on it, but I have zero time to work and zero time to recruit. In this, I realize I have spent less time with my family and less time pursuing my relationship with God. I have been trying to help others and not helping myself or my family and I think I am worse off than if I wouldn't have helped anyone at all. Family should come before others. If it doesn't it should be a joint effort. I am working around 20 hours a week to try to keep finances afloat, but it has become increasingly impossible. The bills are barely getting paid, but I have no doubt in God's ability to see me through this. I don't blame him for not. I got myself here and I need to learn from this experience.

I truly hope all this work is of value to my family and anyone else I can help. I just keep remembering that it's not about me. I need give, give, give until there's nothing left. Ever since I heard that song by Reliant K it has completely changed my life. I don't know why. It just stuck with the very heart of me. That's what I have been doing, but something's gotta give back to me. So I will be reassessing my life in the near future and I will try to determine what has to give and how I can pursue the things that make life so special; the very basics of what makes me what I need to be for my family and future.